4/27/2009 -9am
Lord, help me go through the day. I feel so pressured and stressed where in fact I have all the reasons to be thankful. Having a wonderful family, comfortable house, stable work, healthy body and promising business.
Lord, I know how to get rid of this stress in my life. It’s just that I don’t do it. Let me list it down for you:
1) My kids
I have high expectations on them. I want them to be perfect in everything they do. I read in the Good Housekeeping magazines, that we parents should be role models to them. Questions ? Are Joel and I good role model for them?
I am so thankful for Jocelle. I can feel her concern to me whenever I lose patience to her siblings and she assumes my responsibility as mother to Jhaye and Julius. I don’t know how she is feeling whenever she sees me irritable.
Jhaye, our new bundle of joy, a new addition to our family 2 years ago. She is sooo attached to me that she would cry whenever she lost me of her sight. She is so bubbly and feel secured when I am around. Sometimes, I get tired of taking care of her especially at night when I want to sleep yet she is still active like a horse. She wants me to be awake while she is awake and doesn’t want others to take care of her ( even her daddy who tried to do awkward moves and produce unbelievable sounds just to pacify her). Even going to the toilet is so stressful coz I have to hide in order for her not to notice me or else she will break to tears. Out toilet is our haven for me and Jhaye where we bond most of the time. We take a bath together ever since her yaya Fe left when she was still one. Maybe, that’s the reason why she develops good hand coordination. Mind you, she knows already how to take a bath by herself, and even wash her (ssh….). I just don’t understand why she likes brushing her teeth too much. Ahh…I guess she likes the taste of her toothpaste with bubble gum flavor. She loves removing her diaper also.
For how long do I have to experience this, this experience that I might not experience in the future. Now, I found reason to be happy every time I feel tired taking care of my angel “Jhaye”. Last night, after an hour, trying to get a nice sleep, during that attempt, Jhaye would roll over my body and try to push me using her tiny feet, no wonder why I was not successful in getting a sleep, I opened my eyes and smiled and she smiled back and embraced me so tightly. Maybe, she just wants security from me. To have such security, she wants me to look after her with my eyes wide open while we are together.
Lord, I still have two other children. I feel guilty sometimes thinking that I am not giving them enough attention because I am preoccupied taking care of my angel Jhaye when I am home. Teach me Lord on how to spend time with them and bring out their full potentials. Jocelle has a potential of becoming a good leader and very articulate. I appreciate her notes she always posts on our walls about policies at home. While Julius, can be an athletic person and have good analytical skills. I just hope time will come he will be able to correct the way he walks( two feet almost bumping each other- pike in tagalog)
2) My husband
Lord, I can feel how he truly loves me. He is so sweet but sometimes, I feel guilty coz I fail to let him feel how much I love him due to the pressures around me. Pressures, like I religiously do budgeting strictly so as to achieve our goal of owning our house three years from now. My work as school administrator sometimes brings pressure to me especially when my plans don’t go my way. It’s hard to detach my professional life with my personal life.
How to live my stress-free life? ( please guide me with this Lord )
1) Spend time to pray as family everyday.
2) Read bible passages and reflect on it.
3) Do this daily blog with the Lord
4) Think of a solution rather than dwell on the problems.
5) Consistent with my exercise and balanced-diet.
6) Do something good with people.
7) Learn something new each day.
8) Revisit the projects and budget folder( personal, business and STI)
9) Make reading with my kids a habit
10) Drink my cup of coffee in the morning and afternoon
11) Train people to do stuff but make sure to formulate guidelines such as :
a. Going to the market
b. Preparing menu for the week
c. Detailed Duties and Responsibilities of the helpers
12) Get a salon break and massage at least once a week.
13) Dine out with Joel at least twice a month and talk about the future.
14) PLAN PLAN PLAN PLAN
Lord, help me please……
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