It hit me so intensely when i read this article of Melanie T. Lim today. It is fitting in what happened to me last week. Allow me to dissect every thoughts in this article:
1) What is living for this author? She said, "It's living a purposeful and productive life."
My past week was so stressful taking care of my two children who were both sick, my two elementary kids who fall short of my expectations with regards to personal hygiene and household chores, inefficiency of my helpers. Lack of sleep and my monthly period added up to this stress. It is hard to control my emotions that sometimes I say hurtful words to my love ones that I regretted doing. I think I died inside last week for me to live life this week and weeks after. To reflect on my blessings i had last week: Only 2 of my kids were sick, but my eldest daughter was okay and helping out in taking care of her 2 siblings. Though sometimes I get tired of saying again and again "the must do" to my kids that they always forget to do, still, i have this gift of life, an opportunity for me to learn other effective ways for them change their bad habits. I have two helpers now, that maybe their inefficiency is due to lack of guidance on my end. Two of my friends don't have helpers for three weeks now...
My family life last week, in particular, was not lived purposefully and productively. My kids experienced a "not so enjoyable weekend" with me. But I don't know what they really felt....Maybe, my two children were happy that they had me beside them 3 days straight, full time, to take care of them while they were sick. I just hope my children was looking at the happy experiences with me rather than the bad ones. I just hope I could have been more patient and appreciative last weekend.
2) Living is about making a daily contribution to your life and to the lives of others around you.
I want to contribute to the spiritual, emotional, intellectual and physical growth of my kids. I am looking forward to a day when my children will tell me, " Thank you mommy for you have contributed a lot to my success today".
And to my growth as well, to be more responsible parent.
I HAVE TO CHOOSE MY BATTLE AND DO NOT DWELL ON PETTY PROBLEMS THAT CAUSE A BAD MOOD. MY CHILDREN DON'T DESERVE WHAT'S LEFT IN ME BUT THE BEST IN ME......
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