In Order to Live, You have to die a little bit inside-Melanie T. Lim of Sun.Star Cebu

It hit me so intensely when i read this article of Melanie T. Lim today. It is fitting in what happened to me last week. Allow me to dissect every thoughts in this article:

1) What is living for this author? She said, "It's living a purposeful and productive life."
My past week was so stressful taking care of my two children who were both sick, my two elementary kids who fall short of my expectations with regards to personal hygiene and household chores, inefficiency of my helpers. Lack of sleep and my monthly period added up to this stress. It is hard to control my emotions that sometimes I say hurtful words to my love ones that I regretted doing. I think I died inside last week for me to live life this week and weeks after. To reflect on my blessings i had last week: Only 2 of my kids were sick, but my eldest daughter was okay and helping out in taking care of her 2 siblings. Though sometimes I get tired of saying again and again "the must do" to my kids that they always forget to do, still, i have this gift of life, an opportunity for me to learn other effective ways for them change their bad habits. I have two helpers now, that maybe their inefficiency is due to lack of guidance on my end. Two of my friends don't have helpers for three weeks now...

My family life last week, in particular, was not lived purposefully and productively. My kids experienced a "not so enjoyable weekend" with me. But I don't know what they really felt....Maybe, my two children were happy that they had me beside them 3 days straight, full time, to take care of them while they were sick. I just hope my children was looking at the happy experiences with me rather than the bad ones. I just hope I could have been more patient and appreciative last weekend.


2) Living is about making a daily contribution to your life and to the lives of others around you.

I want to contribute to the spiritual, emotional, intellectual and physical growth of my kids. I am looking forward to a day when my children will tell me, " Thank you mommy for you have contributed a lot to my success today".

And to my growth as well, to be more responsible parent.


I HAVE TO CHOOSE MY BATTLE AND DO NOT DWELL ON PETTY PROBLEMS THAT CAUSE A BAD MOOD. MY CHILDREN DON'T DESERVE WHAT'S LEFT IN ME BUT THE BEST IN ME......

My Journey to Losing the Remaining 10 lbs-Day 1

It’s been a while since I’ve updated this blog…Now, I am back and hoping to write something positive that would inspire readers of this blog..reader I mean, my husband Jojo is my regular reader even if I don’t have new postings….5 months have gone and still my weight is a whooping 140lbs…WHY WHY WHY … I exercise 3 times a week but not losing weight but mind you, I am not gaining lbs……I think because of my diet…My promises to myself to start dieting on a specific date…many dates, shall I say…consistency is the solution…I KNOW IT BUT I JUST DON’T DO IT…

But why do I always fail in starting my diet?

a) If you are married to a man with family who bonds a lot and spends time sitting for hours on a round table, talking about real-life experiences while munching mouth-watering dishes prepared with love and care, cooked like those in high end restaurants in Makati that are rich in high cholesterol ingredients…do you think it is easy to start your diet…I enjoy the food more than I enjoy their conversation coz I am not familiar with the main casts of their stories.

Next time that I will be engaged in this “bonding thing”: I will bring a lot of fruits and nuts that I can munch while listening to their never-ending stories about life. My mother-in-law has nice insights about business and family. I enjoy listening to her advices and observations of the way I raise my kids( most of them, need improvement on my part…hehehe)


b) If you hold a position in a company where you are tasked to entertain VIPs by way of inviting them dine-in in best restaurants in our area, do you think I won’t get tempted ordering foods that would fascinate their taste buds? Since, I have a say on what to orders, WHY NOT include veggies, salad and fish in our set menu…GREAT.

c) ENOUGH OF THOSE ALIBI, the reason is I lack …SELF-DISCIPLINE IN MY EATING HABITS…PERIOD…

I started yesterday. I had a heavy breakfast with my favorite cup of coffee, 1 cup white rice, 1 serving of beef steak( left over dish), 1 slice of puto bingka. In the morning, I had 4 glasses of water. For lunch, I ate cabbage with carrots mixed with sotanghon(no rice). For snack, I just munched coco crunch with one banana and for dinner, grilled fish, kangkong and half cup brown rice….After dinner, My hubby and I played badminton with Taloy and his son for one hour…

I gave our cook a list of food to prepare the entire week, more on fish and veggies and fruits…Hope to lose weight this week. WISH KO LANG….